♥6.15.2009♥
I don't even know what to write for the title.
Well I guess I'll be spilling the beans about the class gat, but I shan't. It makes me remember. About things that I want to forget.
I don't know how to explain it but on the day of the class gathering, I felt I sort of didn't fit in. Even my good friend, (I shan't say ex-best friend) well...there was definitely some kind of barrier and I could tell we were drifting apart. I shall not think about it. D: I'm not angry or upset. Ok frankly, I am sad because it's like a great and beautiful part of my childhood has sort of disappeared and it's really painful to think about it, like it will never be the same again. I felf kinda lost after the gathering, so I wrote a poem. It's not completed though.
It's about pain and hope. Nearly all my poems are on pain and hope. Pain because I've experienced it and hope because I need it. Here goes:
Sometimes when your life may seem so down and so unfair,
it seems like nothing will ever help even when you're deep down in despair.
Your head feels torn, your heart aches, everything seems wrong,
Nothing's able to cheer you up, not even playing your favourite song.
Your happiness's gone, you feel lost, you thing you're going insane,
It feels like the smile you used to carry will never come again.
All the bad things seem to happen at one, you don't know how to act,
You feel that no matter what you think or say, it will never be correct,
But even in the darkest of days, not all hope is gone,
There will always be a new day, you just have to wait till dawn.
Yup that's all I finished till. After that I grabbed a harry potter book and went to bed. But I couldn't sleep. I kept mulling over the gat. Thinking about what happened. It didn't cheer me up. D:
Anyway next Monday I'm going to watch ghosts of girlfriends past! With my friend. Haha I can't wait to see her. :DLabels: class gathering, haha, happy, movie
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♥5.28.2009♥
Yay! So I'm not dead after all! This post is to celebrate my survival.
Hah. Who am I kidding?! The only reason why I'm so glad is because I managed to find the four library books and return them! :D
Well...a lot of things happened today...
One of my friends is sorta worried that she has to stay back a year because she feels her results are not up to standard. Thus, she wants to transfer school. I know some of my friends who know her or even her herself might come across this post but...who cares?
Anyway, the thing is, the real battle (don't ask me what battle) isn't even over yet! For all you know you could ace after the rest of the exams! and you wanna give up like that?
I made her cry.
I feel guilty.
Ok even if I technically didn't make her cry, I...urrgh! I dunno what to think! I'm going beserk! She...gah! and my friends think I'm the crazy one. Oh wait. Yes I am. But anyway the point is...blehh.
Argh. We shouldn't give up. D: I dunno whether she was joking or not but...well...I think she's joking. She's definitely not going to. *praypray* and at the end of the year when she gets a 3.6 or higher, I'm gonna laugh in her face. Because she did well and proved my point. Hah!
Anyway, I still think I've made an enemy in her. That's me. Blunt. Should I be proud of it or something? I don't know. I woudn't try to conceal stuff purposefully from others. And I don't want them to conceal things from me either. If you've got anything to say, say it to my face. Not behind my back. My back doesn't have ears attached to it. The front of my head does.
Well even if people do not like me, what can I do about it? Take a gun and go,"like me or else?" Not everyone is perfect. Not everyone, ok, no one, is one-hundred percent liked. So just live your life and don't worry. I read somewhere (Cathy Hopkin's book. Mates, dates and...I forgot the title)
that you're a short time alive and a long time dead. So lead a meaningful life with as little worries as possible so when you're dead, you won't regret. (If you can, anyway).
Haha. I realise that's a bit ironic because I spend a lot of time on my blog complaining and worring but...oh well. Guess I'm not perfrct either. :D
And another happy thing is that my mum allows me to go out and watch a movie (Angels and Demons) with my friends tomorrow! YAY! And remind me to bring a pillow so I can hide or cover my eyes when it comes to the gory scenes. Whohoo!
And another thing:
We've broken up! Not as in relationship broken up but as in holidays are starting.
:D
Labels: complaining, happy, holidays, Joy, marks, movie, school, transfer, upset, worry
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