I dunno why I feel so moody after talkimg to my (ex-) best friend.
Nope. It's not that we quarreled or anything. It's just that we sort of drifted apart. Last year, (or shall I say, for the last 3 years which I knew her), she was like one of the most popular people in the class. And now she still is. Haiz...let's just day I'm just the complete opposite. Hah. *sarcarsm* Yin and Yang. No wonder we get on so well.
No don't get me wrong. I don't hate her or anything. I don't despise her either. She's nice. She has good leadership qualities. She's pretty and smart. Urgh. I feel so...worthless next to her. D: She was in the council in Primary school. She just went for the SL interview...yesterday? She's probably going to get a great life while I'll be condemned forever.
Urgh I absolutely hate it when I turn like that cause it does nothing but to make me sad, and it's not going to help anything. I know that there are loads of people out there who hate this kind of behaviour as well and tell those who feel like I'm feeling now to "get a grip". I know you do. But touch your heart. I bet we've all felt like that at least once in our lives. There's nothing wrong with being jealous. It's a natural human nature. By saying that you've never been jealous before is such a great lie...let's face it. We all have our jealous and unhappy days sometimes.
I'm not saying it's terribly bad or horrendous, but I'm not saying that it's good too. We can try to control how we feel on the outside sometimes, like hiding our tears, but we can't control how we really feel inside. You can't try to say, "I'm not jealous". Well you can, but you're not deceiving anyone. Except yourself.
Well I guess at the end of the day there are times we want to break down and cry and yell and scream and shout and condemn the world and pull our hair out. We are jealous sometimes. It's perfectly normal, just that we shouldn't let it take over our lives, our feelings and so on. Too little of something, even though if it is bad, may not neccessarily be a good thing.
For those who disagree with me, well I guess different people have their own points and views and the thing is, I'm not gonna change mine just for you. Labels: Jealousy, rants, upset
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